“What does a scanner see? he asked himself. I mean, really see? Into the head? Down into the heart? Does a passive infrared scanner like they used to use or a cube-type holo-scanner like they use these days, the latest thing, see into me - into us - clearly or darkly? I hope it does, he thought, see clearly, because I can't any longer these days see into myself. I see only murk. Murk outside; murk inside. I hope, for everyone's sake, the scanners do better. Because, he thought, if the scanner sees only darkly, the way I myself do, then we are cursed, cursed again and like we have been continually, and we'll wind up dead this way, knowing very little and getting that little fragment wrong too.” ― Philip K. Dick, A Scanner Darkly
"For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known."
In my experience, self reflection in not an easy practice to properly succeed at. I think its secret is balancing inward perceptions with outward Love. To be equally critical and forgiving in Love takes effort no matter the relationship, even when relating to ourselves. My wife, Sarah, teaches me how to see my worth and how I can share that with the world. She reminds me that our faults are opportunities to make beautiful things. Being fully known is to be loved, and though no one outside our Creator can fully know her, I truly love getting to know her. We share our challenges and rely on each other for honest feedback, I couldn't imagine myself with anyone else. She gets me.
"If they told you, 'you were undeserving of love', please know, please believe, please understand, they lied." ― Benny Woith, Vast
New adventures await us in the Mitten! Taking a chance on ourselves and a new start, we've moved to the eastern timezone. As we explore new lands the business and my career grows with new connections while bringing us closer to old ones. So far the experience has been overwhelmingly warm and welcoming thanks to our close friendships and neighbors here. But where will be called to next?
Born and raised in the Big Sky state, my fondness for the outdoors, small communities, and cowboy fashion (kidding) makes moving here to "reset" effortless. As much as I loved living in a "big" city, nothing beats that Montana atmosphere. My wife and I moved here summer 2019 to adventure and prioritize, we've already received so much more. We love this state and hope to stay in the area, we'll have to wait and see what's to come.
For 12 years I built a life in the Emerald City. In that time I lived in 10 different neighborhoods, graduated with a BA in Business Marketing, started my own business, and married my beautiful wife. Seattle was good to me, lifelong friendships that I retain to this day were forged in this city. I still keep in touch with friends and family there as well as business contacts, industry professionals, and creatives that I am fortunate to have in my network. Though I miss this city, it's good to take a break from madness... for a while. It's not you SeaTown, it's me.